9 weeks!

AHHHHH what a sweet sight! We had our first Dr.s appt yesterday.We heard the heartbeat and got this sweet picture. The heartbeat is great at a solid 175BPM. So far so good....keep it up Baby S!!! 

Oh how am I feeling...you ask? Like CRAP!  Luckily, I have an awesome husband who takes really good care of me during this yucky stage. He is really into this whole process and likes to research and read me things....thanks Sans...now let me go throw up! 

Well, we have names!!!! Drum roll.......wait one second. I don't really want to hear whether you don't like one of the names, though! Sans came home with the boy name tonight. He was so proud of himself. We thought of this name before and it popped back in his head. Good thing he won't be called Boy!  Sorry, mom I know you don't care for that boy name.....you will grow to like it! Okay here goes....

Girl: Ava Grace or Addison

Boy: Drew 

We don't really have middle names except for Ava. So, here is where we will take suggestions.....middle names please!! 

8 weeks 3 days!

Extreme anxiety has officially set in! I guess after one has a miscarriage at 10 weeks it is just normal to have all of these nervous feelings.  I ended up ordering a home doppler on Ebay today so I can hear the heartbeat at home whenever I have those waves of anxiety! We have our first OBGYN appt next Monday March 30th.  I called them to make sure I can get an ultrasound that day. They said "yes no problem." THANK GOD! I think I would have ripped their throat out if they told me no! 

Still feeling sick every single day, which is reassuring and trying to enjoy the time of rest and relaxation during these moments! The dogs think that I am glued to the couch and will never take them for a long walk again! Luckily they have their pops to handle that one! 

So, of course everyone always asks.....have you thought of any names? Well let's just say I have and Sans likes to say Yes or No! 

Girls name...Addison (not sure on the middle) maybe Grace. I am sure my mom will find some crazy twist to her name since she calls her Grandaughter Brooker when her name is Brooke! 

Boys Name.....God only knows! I think we'll just call him "BOY" If you have any suggestions on boys names we are taking requests! Sans thinks it's funny to joke around and call him Mehmet Ali or Muhammad! UHHHHH......not over my dead body will our child have those names! 

7 weeks 4 days!

WOW can  I just say nausea and morning sickness are in full force! It is reassuring to feel so sick, but looking forward for my 12 week milestone.  Well, for 2 reasons...1 the fear of miscarriage is over and in your 2nd trimester you start feeling better, or so these other women say!! Can I just say that whoever named it morning sickness was probably a man. It should have been named "all day sickness"! Hey I am not complaining! I couldn't be happier...really vomit and all!!! 

So, we have 1 Grandma (Sans's mom) who is REALLY hoping for a girl. It is quite hilarious how she finds any way to blurt out..."I hope it's a girl, or OH you are so sick...You are going to have a girl. The woman is going to be highly disappointed if she won't be able to buy pink!! Hey, I don't blame her...she has had 2 sons and 2 Grandsons. She needs a girl in her life. Unfortunately, it is really not up to me....it is a 50/50 chance! We'll find out in May. Can't wait!  

6 weeks 4 days

AHHHHH....A HEARTBEAT TODAY! Very exciting and reassuring to see that there is something actually alive in there! Something that is causing my tiredness and nausea! I wouldn't have it any other way! So, I graduated today from the fertility Dr. to the OBGYN. They sent me on my merry way! It was bitter sweet! We really liked our nurse practitioner at our fertility Dr's office. She had such joy on her face the last few weeks when we have gone in every week to get an ultrasound. Today was pure glee for all of us when we could see the heart beating! She said...you have officially graduated! I feel blessed that I did not have to go through such a lengthy process with fertility treatments. I purely empathize with women that go through it for months. All of the crazy hormones and disappointment when you get a BFN (Big Fat Negative) on a pregnancy test month after month.  So today I am feeling blessed....thank you for all who prayed for us and thank you body for wanting to cooperate! 

5 weeks 5 days

Baby S. at 5 weeks 5 days. It was amazing to see something actually in there! I still can't help being so anxious about another miscarriage.....I know I should not even be thinking about it and only have positive thoughts! That experience is something that I will carry with me always.  We just hope and pray that my body can do this! I am now 6 weeks and 3 days. We go for another ultrasound tomorrow to see the heartbeat (fingers crossed!) My belly is getting bigger, I am EXHAUSTED and feeling sick on and off. I seriously could sleep all day...YAWN!